I’ve been searching for something lately.
By reading tens of wedding blogs these days. I did find what I’ve been searching for, but, then i find my self even feel worse than before.
I’ve been searching for something that can assure me that a marriage is another (my) next best thing. I found it is, in those blogs that i’ve read.
But then I find my self worrying lots of others thing. Because instead of being sure, I really feel doubt about everything.
It seems like a scatter plan. While I also have another worryness about my study. I dont know whether it would be a good news or a bad one if that U** offer me a place there. .
If it is, I’m not sure having a longer and longer distance relationship..
Sometimes i really want to throw it up.
and to take my head off..
I really need help. Please, show me the (right) way. I absolutely feel utterly lost…