I often heard the phrase being parents is one of the most difficult jobs in the world. Back then, I just knew that as a common line. Until recently, then i think the phrase is not really true. Being parents is ABSOLUTELY the most difficult job in the world.
The writer is currently having a very low self-confindence as a mother due to some circumstances. Not much to tell but surely she feels pretty anxious. She really hope her mom were still here to comfort her.
She feels a bit pressured and confused whether she has been doing right or not. She surely makes mistakes, but of course those are not permanent.
Parenting is one rocky hard journey that doesn’t allow you to quit nor having days-leave. You keep climbing no matter how tired you are until you reach the top.
Not applying to this job is advisable when you’re not mature, strong, and ready enough.
It’s like the Mac user motto :
Once you go Mac, you can never go back.
It goes same with this. One way ticket, no return.